My Rose

Rosemary Margaret Ives died on the 22nd of October 2011 after being shot once in the mouth in a hunting incident. Four days before she died I told her that I'm lesbian, she was the first adult to know. She was the most loving, beautiful and just plain incredible person that anyone could have wished to meet and it is so tragic that she was taken away in such an awful, wasteful accident. She was 25 years old and was planning on marrying her boyfriend of 3 years. I still miss her to this day and I dedicate this to her as a birthday present.



Your birthday passed not too long ago
26 years... 26 years too soon...
Sometimes I wish you were never there
That I was never there
That we never spoke
But we did, and it was the best four days of my life

On the island we all became one people
But you and I were closer
You knew my everything.
I opened up my heart and let you in so that you could see every hurt.
You loved me for that and I loved you too
If only I knew that you could just be...taken



"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain"


With love and tears,
Zoe xxx

Forgotten

I think this could be love but I'm not quite sure
All I know is that there will never be an easy cure
Coz babe, I need you
I bleed
Coz you coarse through my veins
And if you ever leave I know I won't be the same

When I find myself in darkness I will call out to you
Coz you're the only one I trust to tell me all of the truth
You help me stand up and fight
And then love will hit the lights
And when I saw you for the first time my whole life came right

I know you'd never break a promise coz the promise is you
But you are stealing my heart and I won't pull through
And you just held my hand and told me you won't leave
But you're killing me by giving me all that I need

So I wrote you a letter to say my final goodbyes
Coz I'm sick of seeing you to know I'm living a lie
But then you gave me a call and told me to stop and think
Coz you wanted to be my life's missing chain link

But I know none of that happenned and you know it well too
However, like it or not, I know I still love you
And still my mind is confused
And my heart is abused
And with all this love just for you that is still left unused

Come Home, Mum

I know life is unfair but I sure wish that you stayed
Coz we were tighter than tight, you know we had it made
So we sit with heavy hearts
Rewinding, we missed those parts
We were a team for forever so lets retrace and restart

We know we both had our moments, they were just bumps in the road
But I didn't ever imagine sitting and trying to let you know
That I am missing your touch,
It hurts to love you so much
And I try to get that back but you still won't care that much

So I run into your arms, I want you to keep loving me
But you got another life somewhere, no time for your family
Why can't you understand?
You hold my life in your hands
And you keep squeezing until the hourglass runs out of sand

So I sit down for a minute but you still won't see me cry
I push away all my fear, heart breaks in front of my eyes
But I still stand straight and tall,
I overcome overall
Coz you created my greatness but create my downfall

Soulmate

Said it so much before but once more won't hurt
I love how when I trip up you won't let me hit the dirt
I'm so sorry if this seems a little extreme,
But I still marvel at your remaining faith in me.

I got a lot to get through, so this may take a minute,
Thank you for listening about all the times I stepped in it
But I've never had someone to stick by me
Through the thick and the thin and s-h-i-t

You step into a room, it lights up instantly
Coz you're just you and you be yourself so perfectly
You are exactly what we've all been praying for
I mean, you saved my life, I couldn't ask for more

And as I write this I get a bit emotional
Don't wanna get carried away, but you're exceptional
You're the most loving and accepting person that I know
And now you're with us we won't ever let you go